Wednesday, April 4, 2012

A Writer, Some Cake, and a Blog...

     So..... last week one of our wonderful Proud&Pretty supporters, Janah Valenzuela, suggested I take a look at a blog.  The blog is called "Eat the Damn Cake."  Naturally I loved the title, as I am a fan of cake, and because I had a feeling it was going to have something to do with body image.  I am always looking to read about, and interact, with women who give their views on body image.  It's especially nice when one is brave enough to write out their personal feelings and make them available for the whole world to see and even criticize.
     The writer of this blog is Kate from New York! (read more about her, HERE. She has an impressive background).  Once I read through a few of her entries I was in love...  In love with her style of writing and the fact that she really puts herself out there.  I created the "Writings in Pink" blog so the girls and women of Proud & Pretty in Pink could tell their stories, give their opinions, and have a place to vent about "female topics." I contacted Kate right away to complement her talent and also to ask her to give us an entry to post on our blog.  So today I want to feature Kate.  I do not know her personally but from what I have read she is brave, funny, interesting, and incredibly witty.  She also took the time out of her busy schedule to chat with me through email and I appreciate that more than she knows.  Thank you Kate for shedding real light on female topics through your words.
 
Here is one of her posts from "Eat the Damn Cake"...

No One is Too Smart to Care About Beauty


A teenage reader named Maggie left a great comment on one of my posts. She was talking about how feeling bad about the way she looks is confusing, because she is growing up in a great environment where people aren’t focusing on appearances. Her attempt to lose weight disgusted her, but then she felt terrible about gaining the weight back. Why? She asked. How can those things go together?

And I thought, Yup. Exactly.

My mom is surprised that I write about body image. Why would I? I was always told I was pretty as a kid. But, more importantly, I grew up in a world that wasn’t about looks. It was about learning, and developing a fulfilling skill set, and figuring out what about the world needed fixing, and then trying to help with that. I grew up reading stacks of books and playing in the forest out back and building forts with my brothers and my friends.

So why am I writing about my big nose and my chubby arms so much?

My mom is confused. I’m confused. I’m embarrassed. Maybe I should concentrate on the stuff that matters.

It’s embarrassing to be the girl who admits to feeling insecure about something that really smart girls shouldn’t be thinking about. If I was smarter, I sometimes think, I would have already figured out that this stuff doesn’t really matter. That’s the message. It’s a lot like the message about confidence. If you're confident, people will think you're pretty anyway! It's all about confidence!

When Deborah Rhode wrote a New York Times Op-Ed about how damaging high heels can be, she received enraged responses. “This is NOT what we should be talking about!! There are real issues that women face every day! Fashion is not one of them.”

Sometimes when I tell people I write about beauty, I feel like I need a disclaimer. And then I can’t think of one.

So it’s like, “What’s your blog about?”
“Um, like, body image and beauty and…you know…life.”
“Oh. Cool! That sounds…cool.”
“Yeah, thanks. It’s pretty fun.”
“Yeah, I can see how that would be pretty fun.” *PAUSE* “So, like, does anyone pay you to do that or anything?”

I don’t know why I compare myself to other women. I don’t know why I’m affected by the eternal implied Beauty Standard. I don’t know why I look at my face so critically in the mirror and wonder why it isn’t different and fantasize for a second that if it was a little different, everything would be  so much better.  I don’t know why I categorize myself. I don’t know where I’m getting all of the rules.

It feels uncreative to say, “Society. You know, it’s just out there. The media.”

But the thing is– it is just out there. And somehow, gradually and persistently, I’ve picked it up. Like a virus that keeps adding to itself.

It’s in the  face that models always seem to have, even when they have slightly different bodies. It’s in the body type that’s famous. It’s in the constant barrage of weight loss ads and books and articles that I can’t go three steps without running into. It’s in the family photos passed around, where people always point out the “pretty one.” Even when she’s three years old. And the casual way guys approve of girls if they’re hot enough and dismiss them if they aren’t. It’s in the air.

And none of these things are totally consistent.

But they’re all totally real.

A smart girl picks up on it.

It sticks.

I don’t want to have to explain why I think about this. As though, obviously, I shouldn’t. Obviously, women like me should have moved on. We have serious interests. We work hard. We have a life.

But, obviously, how can I not notice?

I just got back from tagging along on my husband Bear’s business trip.  We went to London and Amsterdam. Every day, he had meetings for most of the day, and I wrote and wandered. It was a little blissful. It was my first time in that part of the world. I’m not well-traveled. Or even close. I felt amazed. I tried not to gawk. I tried not to get hit by a bike. And then another bike, and then another bike. I have this weird phobia about getting hit by a bike that I was forced to overcome, then and there, before I could cross the street.

I was charmed by the different taste of the diet coke, and how the cans were smaller. I was looking for the slight differences everywhere. And everywhere I went, I saw the same images of feminine beauty. The same faces. Sometimes the same models, even, from a Victoria’s Secret campaign. I saw the same body type on the tram stops and billboards. I saw the same thing.

It wasn’t that I expected it to be different.

But a smart girl, any girl, any girl at all can’t help but notice.

Written By: Kate Fridkis


 
Check out Kate's blog: www.eatthedamncake.com

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